Light at the end of the tunnel

Sometimes things change really quickly. Only a day after my last blog post, wondering how long we will have to wait until we can go back to real rehearsals, the government announced that we would only have to wait another 2 days.

So here we go. Now it’s all about risk assessments, hand sanitizer, stickers for social distancing, face masks indoors or not and of course HUGE anticipation to FINALLY be allowed to sing together AND hear each other. In one room. Feeling the vibes, smiling at each other, laughing, and hearing the laughter, no more Muppets Show style Zoom windows. I will not miss it…

And then, of course, how could else could it be, you wonder, is this safe? What if one of my singers catches the virus? What if he or she catches it during the rehearsal? What if someone has it and doesn’t know and gives it to other singers? What if people die? What if next week the newspapers are full of reports “GERMAN CHOIR impatient! Singers gave their lives for singing”

And then… yes, there is a danger. Yes, it is possible to catch this virus whilst singing. Yes, it would be safer to sit at home. But if we are talking ifs… what if you sit at home and some blood vessel bursts in your brain. Whilst you *don’t sing? Are we ever really safe? Do I really want to live in a world that is mainly safe? How much safety do we need. And I obviously move now away from just the Corona question. Where is the balance between living a life that I want to live, meeting people, sing and yes, taking risks and making sure with that life I live I don’t put others in danger. Should we trust the government, when they allow us to get back together to make music? Or should we stay at home even though we are allowed back into life again?

As always, Everyone needs to answer these questions for themselves and I can only give you my very personal answer. I have always taken risks. I like challenges, I’d rather fail than not having tried. And yes, if that costs my life I will obviously not have made the right decision, but I refuse to let the fear of death or failure (to be a little less melodramatic here) rule my decision making in general. If I can protect others from my foolishness I will do so. But my life is mine to live. And I want to live it.